Saturday, July 15, 2006



hello people!!

i came by to wish all of you ALL THE VERY BEST for SPM.
























thanks for all the things you guys done for or with me.

talk.

laugh.

sing.

smile.

tolerate.

et cetera.

and sorry for all the things i've done and have not done.

irritate.

tease.

abuse.

harass.

bully.

et cetera.
























remember to smile!! and pray for rain!!

(: i love each and everyone of you. especially those few biatches in my class.

wouldnt have survived without you guys.

(: god bless. don't over study.

dont talk to strangers.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

i dont get HOW...

1. ...cant i upload any picture. sheesh.

2. ...can people be SO caught up with studies and not blog AT ALL.
i mean COME ON.
unless you take two hours to blog, dont hint me with your aggresiveness. [no offence] in disbelief.

3. ...can people just ASSUMED to be recognized.
take for example today i was in the park. doing warm ups. halfway round the field i saw this guy who was imitating me with my warm ups.
GAWD. you're in a JEANS. and your shirt wouldn't suck up half of my sweat. i'm not boasting about my sweat. it's urea. fyi.
he smiled. i squinted. he DID look familiar. i walked away.
the second round. and he wasnt there anymore.
DUDE. next time you see me. COME UP to me. and REFRESH my MEMORY. i don't do so good in remembering names. it's like remembering what Mesopotamia contributed to the world.

4. ...can my dog be more patriotic than us.
i picked out the Jalur Gemilang from a cardboard box in my yard and my dog leaped on me. giving a 4-5cm scratch on my lap. ouch.
nah. patrictic my ass.
i bet he thought it was food.
dogs assume almost everything is edible.
and my dog thought my socks were cats and barks at them.
THEY LOVE YOU FOR YOUR FOOD.

5. ...sze luan named her water balloon.
heck. naming something is like proclaiming SERIOUS ownership.
she hugged it like it was the only loaf of bread she was gonna survived on for the next forever.

6. ...i bursted mine the other day.
i'm referring to my used-to-be water balloon. fyi.
i was studying and twisting it and 'pop!'.
my shirt was wet.
so were my shorts.
and my underwear.
and my air-con was running.
my new add math book was wet.
so hell with it i had to use the old one.
and crack my head figuring trigos anyway.
my table was wet.
but i was able to turn it upside down.
because it was vandalized.
my floor was wet too.
and my good ol' report card.
other than that pretty much everything else was dry. :)

7. ...i didn't understand number 6.

8. ...how can people be sad all the time.
no one gives a FREAKING DAMN with your SULKING face. so get on with your EFFIN life however SAD it is.
THINK AFRICA KIDS.

9. ...not feel guilty about stealing.
i had jess' bar of Cadbury on my table the other day. and it stared at me.
like i commited a crime.
YOU DON'T WANNA KNOW.

10. ...my parents are anti-blog people.
my dad just walked pass me telling me i'm wasting time. I KNOW.
this is SUCH A WASTE OF TIME.
and a nice place to keep my head from blowing into a GAZILLION chunks.
SEE.
THAT'S THE EXACT FRIGGIN REASON WHY I DON'T BLOG VERY OFTEN.
and
school's a pretty ideal place to waste time too.
S H E E S H.

and i'm off. eff this. it's so long.

Sunday, July 9, 2006

people...
BREATHE.
Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts the cheating lovers
The coffees never strong enough
I know you think it's more than just bad luck
There there baby it's just textbook stuff
It's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling don't loose your head
Cause none of us where angels and you know I love you
Yeah
speeding cars. by Imogen Heap.

Saturday, July 8, 2006



jīng zhōng bào guó : "serve the country loyally"
okay. don't ask me why am i doing this. i'm doing an article on this historical figure. from china. yup. some dead china man (hey no offence, he was great, but it's a fact that he's DEAD). for the sake of SPM and I. but it WAS prety interesting to me. *wwink* and HE is...
Yuè Fēi
i have no friggin idea why is his name yue fei. but according to my dad (who i deem to be a reliable source), a bird flew across when his mum gave birth to him, that was why his mum named him 飞, which means fly. perhaps, in this case, SOAR.
what's with the 精忠報國?
According to legend, Yue Fei's mother tattooed four characters 精忠报国: jīng zhōng bào guó which mean "serve the country loyally" on his back before he left home. for war (duh).
so this yue fei dude man was a really famous general from the Song Dynasty. back in those days, the Song Dynasty was defending against the forces of Jin Dynasty, the Jurchen invaders, also known as BARBARIANS (no, seriously).
'Yue Fei had an extremely disciplined army who “would not occupy civilian houses even if they froze to death and would not take food from civilians even if they starved to death”. For this, Yue Fei’s army was known as the “Army of Yues” among the Song people and even the Jinn General once made the remark that “it is easier to shake a mountain than it is to shake the Army of Yues”.'
okay. to cut it short, Yue Fei had been in 126 battles and won them all. the important part is this peom he wrote called:
Man Jīang Hóng: "Entirely Red River"
i think red refers to blood. i THINK. so anyway, yea, i have to study poems like this for SPM. this poem tells of his hatred towards the Jins. the Jins were so strong that to end the conflict, Song Dynasty's emperor signed an agreement called the Treaty of Shaoxing.
under it Southern Song agreed to tribute 250,000 dollars and 250,000 packs of silk to Jin every year (until 1164). Emperor Gaozong was also forced to execute Yue Fei. another rationale behind yue fei's rage was the Jingkang Incident, also known as the Humiliation of Jingkang.
Basically what happened was, the Jin forces abducted Emperor Qinzong, his father Emperor Emeritus Huizong, along with many members of the imperial court. Jingkang was the era name (throne name) for Emperor Qinzong. thus, the term Humiliation of Jingkang.
Yue Fei was then given the general post, where he led troops to drive the Jurchen invaders out from Song's territory. I guess, he felt so inspired by his hatred that one day, he decided to express his intense desire to recover the lost Song territories and wipe off the shame with that 滿江紅 (Man Jīang Hóng) poem.
I wont elaborate the poem considering how LONG this post has gotten. but nevertheless, here are two lines from the poem.
1.莫等閒 白了少年頭,空悲切。
mò děngxián bái le shàonián toú, kōng bēiqiè.
So do not sit by idly, for young men will grow old in regret.
2. 壯志飢餐胡虜肉,笑談渴飲匈奴血。
zhuàngzhì jī cān Húlu ròu, xiào tán kě yin Xiōngnú xiě.
There we shall feast and drink barbarian flesh and blood.
for the full poem with pinyin and english translation, click on the chinese characters.
my dad told me that the 'Prime Minister' at that time, Qin Hui, was corrupted. he was bribed by the Jins. By that time, Yue Fei has already driven the Jurchen invaders out of Song's territory, in fact, across the border. Qin Hui persuaded the Emperor (i think by telling the Emporer how he would lose power when Yue Fei brings back the abducted Emperor and his father) to order Yue Fei back to the capital.
'As soon as Yue Fei came back, he was removed of duty. He was then accused by the Prime Minister, Qin Hui, and soon executed. At the news, General Han Shizhong asked Qin Hui, “What crime did Yue Fei commit?” To this, Qin Hui replied evasively, “mo xu you” which meant “something quite possible”. Ever since then, the phrase “mo xu you” became a synonym for false accusation.'
have you ever eaten 油炸檜 (mandarin: yóuzhá Huì / canto: yau ja gwai)?
please tell me you know what it is. haha. it literally means oil-freid Hui, with Hui referring to Qin Hui, or oil-freid devil. it is said that the food represents Qin Hui and his wife, both having a hand in collaborating with the enemy to bring to Yue Fei's execution.
Qin Hui could not find a logical reason to execute Yue Fei. however, his wife suggested that since the emperor held absolute power, Qin Hui having the authority of the emperor, needed no reason to execute Yue Fei. beee-yatch power!
back then, the population were afraid to openly declare their contempt towards the corrupt official, therefore, the food became a tool of expressing contempt. frying the couples and eating them. besides urinating at their grave etc.
okay. I gotta go study now. less than a month to trials. I KNOW!.