ugh. i HATE looking at my senior page. makes me feel sad there's like... 5 more months left?

i mean. i admit. we fight all the time. honestly speaking. everyone hates SOMEONE in the class. including me. and someone hates me too. i wont mention who. but i really want to make it up.

looking at the pictures just brings back hell lot of memories. fun, happy times. you know. no emo-ing. no fights. no conflict. i get 'i just HATE our class' alot. from some of my classmates. we're no different people. it's just who we hang out with. cant we just blend?

ugh.

by the way i wont be uploading any pictures. my comp has some serious virus problem. it's working like a slug.

what would you do if you wake tomorrow
when all your gray skies have now turned blue
HOW MANY DAYS DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GIVEN?
so get on livin'
IT'S UP TO YOU.

YOU'LL NEVER SHINE IF YOU DON'T GLOW.

who are they to call us nerds
what grostesque idea
well at least we are not
two-faced freaks,
backstabbing dumb blondes.

so what if we are not
prom kings with bulging muscles
or drama queens with bulging lumps
we accept us
the way we are
and that's what make life
a butterfly, anyway.

so you have
make-up dramas,
you're hot gossip icon,
you are entertainment,
but not really anyway,
moths wear dull clothes,
the ugly herd of night stalkers.

so sometimes
things are blissfully tragic,
pffth. big deal,
big guy's on vacation.
we have teddy bear stomachs,
brad pitt arms,
big foot palms,
to punch, hit and hi5,
we have real shoulders
to cry on,
consoling even with
only budget tissue.

not roll-eyes bitches,
charlie-male-angels,
at least we dont drink vodka
and hang our heads,
slit wrist and lie
in pools of blood,
attracting flies...

we listen.
we talk things out.
so who are YOU to call us nerds
p.s. narrow-minded typicals
are NOT qualified.

i'm officially declaring i'll be MIA for some time.
reason. trials. spm. enough said.

my crappings will be replaced by the contents from the following sites:
1. kertas percubaan kertas SPM - MRSM.
2. pendidikan bestari (click on bank soalan).

Jo good-girl-fies.

sometimes when the nights are closing early

i remember you and i start to smile.

even though now you don't want to know me

i get on by... and i go the extra mile. :)

this is skye sweetnam. i'm developing a crush on her, undeniably falling for her. lalala* hey her lips shows a little resemblance with angelina jolie don't you think? Jess don't particularly like her because when i say skye sweetname, jess pictures her mole. *speechless*

check out
1Jamie Cullum
-different kinda jazz.
2The Killers
-different kinda lyrics.
3FranzFerdinand
-different kinda beat.
4Oasis
-different kinda arrangement.
5PnChong
-different kinda music.

cant think of 5 unique ones. 4 just seem kind...weird. i smell food. Jo lunches.

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.

1daqiang

2jessica

3serene

4kwanyi

5jiyung

6bay

7emily

8yeekeong

9siewying

10melissa

11shiuenee

12joel

13thum

14lijen

15aunt-unachi

16ben

17mum

18pn robita

19wengyue

20ganesha

Questions:

1. How did you meet 14 (lijen)?

form 4 in class. duh. i first known her as the gigi kecik girl hehe. i still think their really cute.

2. What would you do if you had never met no.1 (daqiang) ?

OH MY GOD. i'll probably be single for the rest of my life. drooling over unreachable-ten-years-elder-only-mah-edison-chen.

3. What would you do if 20 (ganesha) and 9 (siewying) dated you?

ganesha!! hunk. hehe. cooly. siewying. YES LA. we'll make a GREAT couple right loupo?

4. Would 6 (bay) and 17 (mum) make a good couple?

BAY AND MY MUM?!!!

WTF.

5. Describe no3 (serene).

as in -chee. for further details of -boon please visit 'lijen' from my links. nice girl. fellow sopo since i was in standard 3. squash player. humorous. blurness. weird yet cute in some ways. gossip queen. etc.

6. Do you think no 8 (yeekeong) is attractive?

yeekeong. haha. is he attractive?budak kecik betul!

7. Tell me something about no 7 (emily).

one thing bout emily.

weird.

8. Do you know anything about no 12's (joel) family?

DUH. Joel's family. CUTE CUTE CUTE!!!

eurasian. mum chinese. dad portu. his dad still dances his mum in the living room. how cute is that?! two elder sis. first one cooks real well. econd one bullies joel. wild sister. ehe.

9. What is no 8's (yeekeong) favourite?

dota. football. con people?

10. What would you do if 11 (shiuenee) confess that he/she likes you?

wow. sorry jiyung.

11. What language does 15 (aunt-unachi) speak?

aunt-unachi.aka housekeeper the V of intermediate family. indon maybe?basically malay. abit mandarin.

12. Who is 9 (siewying) going out with?

ME ME ME ME ME!!!!!!! ehe. Lesley and Krystle?

13. How old is 16 (ben) now?

twelve. heh. irritating small boy.

14. When was the last time you talked to 13 (thum) ?

friday la duh.

15. Who is no2's (jess) favourite singer?

so many. used to be jesse mcartney cuz he's hot. used to like relient k alot. she likes fall out boys. john mayer. she listens to mainstream more than i do but dont think she specifically likes any artist. more about the songs.

16. Would you date no 4 (kwanyi)?

hehehehe. sure.

17. Would you date 7 (emily)?

uh..................haha why not.

18. Is 15 (aunt-unachi) single?

yup. my maid's...single. =.='

19. What's 10's (mellisa) last name?

i know!! tan!!

20. Would you ever considere being in a relationship with 11 (shiunee)?

uh. no. jiyung'll skin and boil me alive.

21. What school does 3 (serene) go to?

my school la. Seafield. duh.

22. Where does 6 (bay) live?

Puchong. haha.

23. What's your favourite thing about no 5 (jiyung)?

very jiyung-ish lah!! bubbly-funny-one-of-a-kind. you get what i mean.

so who should I tag?

1. lijen

2. kwanyi

3. jiyung

i decided i'm gonna be a permanent fan of skye sweetnam. for awhile. she's 18. hot. and talented. i'll post her picture in my next post. so go check her out aite?

okay. i was totally in a f*cked-up mode yesterday. excuse the crudity of my statement. happens one day every month. when you think the world ought to tolerate you, your vulgarity and your tendency to sulk at everything. moodswings. short-tempered. easily irritated. plain emo.

pissed with nothing to be pissed at. fustrated yet not depressed. aggresive yet ignorant. the world seems to be owing you something for spinning a little too fast. my head is spinning but my heart is in the right place, sometimes it has to has itself a little earthquake.

it's a girl thing. a yesterday thing.

today, as usual, i'm the girl next door who. smiles at nothing, laughs at my own lame jokes and peeks at the lady at the next table during lunch, trying to figure out if it's make-up, or if her cheeks are really pinkish, or if she has this mysterious power to blush non-stop.

i really have no point of blogging at all. haha. i just happen to find midis and songs on this site i really like so i sat here for the past hour listening to all of it. yes i know spm's coming. blah! have some life and quit studying for awhile. the one on my blog now is called guardian angel.

note: i know i kinda screwed-up yesterday. i'm really sorry. i love you lots. :)
Jo assures.

deviantart

finally i found another artist with art i really adore. this one's called fat donald. :)

a very good example of you are what you eat.

teehee. appreciate your last few months with your dearlies in seafield. love you people. wonderful readers.

and imaginative-tagboard-porn-discussion-people.

adios! Jo fleeeeeeeeeeeeees.

explodingdog

my phone has been degraded.

again.

FOR THE THIRD TIME.

very funny. haha.
that was meant to be sarcastic. fyi.

okay. so as you all know. we're currently in this generation, of which an average teenager owns a cellphone with a 3.2megapixel camera, and still own a digital camera made famous by maria sharapova, maybe a notebook or at least a laptop, tiny mp3s or some ipod nano, streamyx broadband service and houses completed with ozone layer murderers.

and about, say, 10,000 tuition classes a year?

this generation is crazy. we live with robots. i figured. so anyway, the point is, for a girl who lives here in kk, amongst rich brats, who have bulging wallets, and over-flowing-cash-flow, my cellphone don't qualify to be existing. like. at all.

but i'm fine with it really. i guess the only feature i like, is the vibration. and hey, i just got high score for space impact yesterday. a mighty 5870. please don't ask me why was i playing that game. even i don't wanna know.

so you ask me what modal is my phone.

say you're my friend.

you : Jo, what phone you using?

Jo : all the hot people use it last time.

hey it's true. all the hot people did use it. haha. i got the idea from ellan, who was intending to console me of my misfortune thanks to Jess, the serial cellphone killer.

say I don't know you well.

you : Jo, what phone you using?

Jo : this one. budget. tahan lasak.

teehee. hey, don't come around and show off your N series phone in front of me. i swear i'll take and wham it right onto the wall. smash it to pieces. and blow its powder away. or maybe take it for a swim. wait a minute.

DONT TELL ME

MODERN CELLPHONES

ARE WATER RESISTANCE.

* smacks face * I should go take dinner. it's 10pm. i love my phone. teehee. Jo says.

explodingdog

psst!

here's a secret.

KEEP IT SHUT!

I'M

BORINGLY

HETEROSEXUAL.

HOW ABOUT YOU?

DON'T DENY YOUR

HOMOSEXUALITY.

IT'S NOT A CRIME.

Jo says.

explodingdog

okay. so i was kinda in emo mood. but after crapping a little with a.S.a, reminding each other about the test tomorrow and physics folio... get the picture. my slumber nature. i'm a sloth. i admit. i shall now bore you with my emo story. words of rage are never wise. i know. this is a just for the record thing. bear with me.

big deal. so i had a row with my parents last night. it's not about getting grounded. or anything big like smoking dope or setting houses on fire. thing is. i smashed the door on my brother's fingers. accidentally.

he placed his right hand at the place the door and the wall meets. get the picture. please say you do. he screamed, yelled and cried. potential. thriller movie victim. it's not like i set him on fire. of slash him on his chest. or chopped his arm off. nothing concerning blood. well actually i wouldn't know. i was too busy hiding.

i was WANTED. my parents were practically HUNTING for me. sounds like some child abuse.

i went to hide in the toilet. pity aint it. hey i had no choice. my brother shares with me my room. and he was downstairs crying to his mumma who was wrapping his middle finger. with a plaster. dang. this aint the first time. when you're desperate...

thank god i didn't smell like toilet today.

okay. so i totally forgotten about it. until dinner just now i was eating with my dad. alone. there was one small piece of vege left in a plate of gravy. gosh. get the picture. a leaf. in urine-coloured water. ew that was sick. so i took the plate over to me and said thank you.

dad: so rude.

Jo : there's only one more left. = =

dad: it's not for you.

Jo : FINE.

and i put it right in front of my dad. he ate the last miserable piece of vege. whatever you know. and i ate nothing but white rice for dinner. the other meat or ribs or something looked gross. jess came in after awhile.

Jess: why not eating this?

Jo : i might not be allowed to.

*silence*

nothing but white rice. and a bowl of carrot soup. yea, it was pretty ugh-ifying. and when i die because of malnutrition i'll leave a note to my mum that says

mum, tell your husband he can have my share of edible green leaves.

sheesh. get over it already. would i want to crush my brother's fingers? what? ...okay maybe yes, but i won't acutally DO it. i'm not a REAL psychopath. and my brother's grinning away to the fact that he cant write now. he told my parents it was an accident but they didn't believe.

ugh. parents. cant live with them. cant live without them. Jo says.

shut up.

holidays are boring the hell of me.

okay. so the other day, well actually many, many days ago, but i'm just trying to start a topic anyway, i was in music class. after one of my pieces. my teacher, Ivy, told me about her Form4 son who watches porn. she was checking through his computer and she saw all these downloads. yes. she seemed shocked. well maybe it's a mum thing.

'cher, don worry la, all guys wath porn.'

hey. it's Joel's theory. haha. but it's not unbelievable. pbbth!! dude. it's a universal thang. so anyway, few weeks later, my teacher came to my house. she was talking to my mum. and my mum started the whole my-daughter-dont-study-enough thing. and my teacher started her my-son-play-too-much-computer thing.

it's a chinese mum thing.

and my teacher told mum about his son watching porn or something. pbbth!! chill lar. it's not like killing people or setting houses on fire. you know. cantonese say - sat yan fong fo -. suprisingly:

ivy : aiyo. i tell you. my son watch porn la!

mum : they watch also what...

Jo : wtf? ( nola, i didnt actually say wtf) since when?!!

mum : you think i don't know. everytime the interenet window pop out...

Jo : that one not our fault la...

seriously. please tell me you're facing the same problem. you're surfing the net halfway and suddenly some window passion or adult friend finder, whatever, pops out. yes, with some lady showing that seducive face. some revealing their boobs or something. gosh. woman, keep that ass to yourself.

i'm NOT into porn. and even if i am, would i find sites like that? i'm NOT lesbo. and i'm NOT seducable. gheez. anyone have any idea how to stop the site from poping up? it's obnoxious. okay. enough crap for now. can you believe my. MY MUM THINKS I WATCH PORN. great.

holidays are boring the hell out of me. Jo says.

happy birthday kwanyi and snee!!

okay. i admit. i miss school. i miss seafield. i miss pn chong calling children. i miss my friends. i miss my lousy class monitors. i miss teasing the teachers. i miss pn ung smling with her kinda black teeth. i miss sleeping in pn malar's class. i miss pn ng's nagging well, not really. i miss pn latha saying nOoOoOo with her humoungous i'm-bulging-out eyeballs. i miss the pressure. the stress that everyone thinks exists but don't know if it exists at all. and i miss him. lots.

killing time.

001. Name: Joanne . YiHua . Loke .
002. Nicknames: Jo. Mojo. JoJo-hey i got this before SHE crashed the music scene-. Tiffany. Tiffy!! Dude.
003. Single or taken: duh. loving it.
004. Place of Birth: BukitMaluri. KL.
005. Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius
006. Male or Female: Female
007. Birthdate: 3rd December 1990
008. School: SMK Seafield
010. How many buddies on your list: dunno. don care.
011. any aol/yahoo/msn: msn.

___Your Appearance___
012. Hair Color: black. duh.
013. Hair Long or Short: Not really long.
014. Eye Color: black. i guess.
015. How do your nails look?: -shivers.-
016. Height: 164cm aka NOT TALL ENOUGH.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: uhh...
018. Do you ke yourself?: huh.
019. Braces?: used to. ehe.
020. Think your awesome?: duh YA!
021. Piercings: used to two. now none.
022. Tattoo: nope.
023. Righty or Lefty: Righty

___Your 'Firsts'___
024. First surgery: uhh..braces..does not count.
025. First piercing: 4. i think.
026. First best friend: Fatin. from tadika eden.
027. First Award: sports day. tadika eden. consolation. red house.
028. First Sport You Joined: cant remember.
029. First pet: puppy. snowy. she ran away...........
030. First vacation: uhh..dunno.
031. First Concert: tadika la DUH.
032. First love: uhh..snowy..she ran away............

___Favorites___
033. Movie: anything funny. scary movie. ahaks.
034. TV Show: everybody loves raymond. malcolm. does cartoon counts...
035. Color: Pink and Purple
036. Music: uhh..depends.nothing too crappy.
037. Song: refer 036.
038. Food: depends.
039. Drink: depends.
040. body parts: depends.
041: fave place: my bed.
042: fave shoes: uhh. none.
043. Brand Of Clothing: uhh. dont bother.
044. Fave Shop: uhh..i cant believe there's a HUNDRED of these.
045. Fave School: duh. Seafield.
046. Fave Animal(s): puppies. penguins. guinea pigs.
047. Books: MitchAlbom. RoaldDahl. etc.
048. Magazines: 17

___Currently__
049. Eating: nothing. sad.
051. Mood: Irritated. what happened to 050 052 and 054...
053. Listening to: my cousin and brother. mosquitos.
055. Wanting To: start schooling.
056. Watching: nothing.
057. Wearing: reebok top. dolly shorts

___Your Future___
058. Want Kids?: uhh..yea?
059. Want to Get Married?: yea. DUH.
060. Careers in Mind: lawyer. teacher. this is boring.

__Which is better with the Opposite Gender__
068. Lips or Eyes: both. eyes i guess.
069. Hugs or Kisses: hugs. ehe.
070. Shorter or Taller: taller duh.
071. Outgoing or serious: not serious.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: both.
074. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive. not soft.
075. Hook-up or Relationship: umm..
076. Sweet or Caring: both.
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one: uhhh..not hesitant.

___Have you ever___
078. Kissed a Stranger: nope.
079. Drank bubbles: guess so. yum.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: almost.
081. Ran Away From Home: nope.
082. Broken a bone: nope.
083. Got an X-ray: yup.
084. Broken Someone's Heart: heh. since when.
086. Turned Someone Down: ahaks.
087. Cried When Someone Died: hey i forced myself to. go with the flow.
087. Cried at school: heh. ya.

___Do You Believe In___
089. God: mmhmm.
090. Miracles: yups!
091. Love at first sight: never thought of it.
092. Ghosts: dunno.
093. Aliens: yea dude...
095. Heaven: yups.
096. Hell: sheesh.
098. Kissing on the First Date: uhh..no?
099. Angels: yup.

___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There someone You Want But You KnowYou Can't Have?: NO. ahaks.

finally i'm like done. aha. just to have my beggining post of the month. off to dinner now. ahaks. hahahahahahahahahaha. Jo laughs.